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Stephanie Ying Hawthorne

Stephanie Hawthorne

Stephanie Hawthorne

I adore the night time; when the rest of the world is asleep, I chat with the moon.

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I’ll admit, my second initial thought when titling this post was the reference to The Fault in Our Stars, by John Green – I’m sure a lot of people know this book, right? Hazel Grace states in the eulogy, “You gave me a forever within the numbered days,” and I lose it at this point; cue the waterworks from the audience!

If there was one Bible verse that stuck out to me the most as a kid, it’s this one: Psalms 90:12. It’s not a popular one that you may find on a card, or one that many would memorize as a child in Sunday school.

“Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.” (NIV)

I don’t remember the rest of the chapter or the context of this verse, but somehow, this one stuck with me. Without saying much, this verse speaks to me a lot.

Gaining wisdom in the heart and mind are critically important in life. There is so much growth within us. What if we lived life without a care of what tomorrow’s outcomes would bring?

I think of all the things I want to do on certain days and I wouldn’t want to be ignorant of the situation. I’d like to know the details and facts about things in order to gain more knowledge, or even expand the capacity within my heart. I would also like to remain on the positive side in society instead of mucking my life up.

There are infinite number of choices we make daily. Options that we may decline or haven’t considered available. Opportunities that can take us all on different paths if we decline or accept.

It’s incredible to think that I have lived for 8,396 days and there are still thousands of things that I don’t know and still want to learn! [Calculated here.] I sometimes wonder if I should have tried to apply for this job, or moved away to this city earlier.

Despite the frustration of it all, maybe I’m meant to be where I am at this moment in life, only to grow and thrive even stronger on other days.

If I knew I’d only get, 21,915 days [60 years], I would have definitely lived it with the greatest measures of happiness and adventure! Of course, we don’t know how many days, or if we even get that many days. I do know how I want to spend them, and it wouldn’t be in fear or carelessness!

Whether it’s taken in a biblical context or any other reference, I think it’s important to be wary of your days because we all are set to live on this planet for a varied number of days and years.

I’m in awe of how many options we are given daily. Do I want to make a spontaneous trip and go to this city for a day or two? Should I change the course of my mindset in order to build a better tomorrow? Should I go out tonight for an adventure with my friends and loved ones?

It’s up to us all how we want to spend our days. I’m gaining wisdom within my heart.

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15 comments on “Numbering days.

  1. Sadah says:

    Nicely penned.

    Liked by 1 person

      1. Sadah says:

        It would be great if you would like to join an all new social media website, and share your photos, videos, links, quotes or whatever you wish to.


      2. I’m not familiar with that website, I will definitely check it out. Thank you for letting me know about it!


  2. Each day is taking you forward.. make each day count…


    Liked by 1 person

    1. Most definitely, that’s the goal! Thanks for taking the time to read!


      1. You’re welcome.


  3. wchimesjim says:

    Beautiful words ! But I tried the calculator and the Internet exploded ! haha

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Awh, surely not! Thank you once again! 🙂

      Liked by 1 person

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